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Author: Poetic_tragedy6
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I love smoking cigarettes.
The long, hard pull on something I know is toxic
Something I am aware of slowly killing me
Something that if I don't stop, I'll get sick
A long exhale
Watching my stress disappear
Is better than the anxiety I feel on a daily basis
Because I would rather slowly kill myself
By choice, my choice
I would rather have this power
Than to continue to allow others to have it over me
And funny it seems
That smoking allows me to finally breathe
A rush of nicotine
Is better than a rush of adrenaline that I get
Every time I see you in public
And that is a different level of being sick
Smoking cigarettes is addictive
Much like the love I felt for you
And just like our love
I turn to it when I don't know what else to do
But our love is not love
It's something toxic, rotting, and painful
Every time you come to mind
I get the old feeling of being shameful
Tar, ash, and cancer
Are nothing compared to the death
That I get from your memory
So please let me smoke my cigarette
Relish in it's pleasure
Please just let me be.

Submitted on 2017-09-07 15:57:28     Terms of Service / Copyright Rules
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  I can totally relate to the I dont give a fuck attitude. One Life, My Life... I dont smoke cigs, however i do smoke something else ;) good write. thanx
| Posted on 2018-01-03 00:00:00 | by Cordell | [ Reply to This ]
  I really like the topic of your poem and it really touched me. I can very well understand adrenaline rush and it's effects. I do understand this dilemma but I would like to emphasize on the hostility of nicotine. Adrenaline rush stays for a short time and you need to stay strong during that critical time and you can also seek medical help during that pivotal period. You must quit nicotine. It is a very important issue worth pondering. Best wishes.
| Posted on 2017-12-22 00:00:00 | by Ramneet | [ Reply to This ]
  You can find peace and a stress reliever is so many other things. This is a mind set. Keep convincing yourself that it helps while knowing that it kills, is only creating a life of denial, until the massive medical bills start to pile in. Addiction is just that. Cravings as well. You can be mentally strong enough to fight the urge. Trust me if you try you will see it's a lot easier to give up then you think. Just make the decision, it's really as simple as that. I use to smoke. I understand this write completely. It's simply a choice. It really is only up to you. I am sure you will be either upset or annoyed by my comments but that's just your subconscious ego controlling to keep you in the same habits. But it only takes one day to make the choice. And for anybody to encourage healthy habits, what a gift that truly is. Replace the cigarette with a bottle of water. Every time you have a craving drink a bottle of water. I promise you it works. You will also feel like a brand new person! My brother, he smoked for 18 years. He quit and 6 months later now he is fighting bladder cancer caused by cigarettes. It was estimated that it took 10 years to develop the tumor he had removed. He had his first born baby girl and then two days after she was born he had to go to his first cancer treatment. He's 38. Not old. Very heathy and good looking. But he had a tumor that caused him to pee blood. Now that's a normal part of his life for the last 6 weeks. Peeing blood. Trust me, it's not a stress reliever. You only have convinced yourself it is.
| Posted on 2017-09-13 00:00:00 | by Chelebel | [ Reply to This ]

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