Kinda dark start. It seems our person is seeing the beauty in the struggle only as she has given up and plunges. Makes me think it isn't a good idea to take the plunge, so, in that, it is life affirming.
Days are hard. We all need a pink root to show us the way through the packed dirt and stones, even if it's just for some internal hope and not enough to grasp physically. Love your writing. Hope you're doing well.