A drink, to celebrate a great day. to celebrate a new promotion.
A drink with the guys during the game.
A drink with the wife to have a good time.
A drink is was I thought it was for but in reality.
A 5th to drown the stress of the day, the bills that pile up. to wash away the bullshit from work.
A 5th to cope with reality.
I seems that I find myself only to drink to get away, and when the stress becomes to much, a 5th forget it all.
When I don't drink I hold everything in, and let the emotions build up. and once I have that 5th, all emotions pure out.
I drink and try to convince myself that I am happy and there is no stress but underneath, she sees it all.
Why can't I express myself without that drink?
why must I lie to myself and say everything is okay but in reality, I'm losing everything by my side.
A drink I must put down, and learn to deal with stress, to deal with reality. |