I have learned that I
I am fucking crazy
I have never truly thought
But then again I think too much
Just too much
That I must be fucking crazy
And every little thought
Is that a rolling snowball of hot
Lead against my ears
As they burn with screams
That I can not decipher
And try as I might
I can not ignore them
So I fight with my head
Slap punch and scratch at the numbers
And volume of voices
Iâ€™m trying to hurt them
So maybe they will leave me alone
I am so fucking crazy
That I thought this could save me
But then again
I think too damn much
| Alright ,, the metal is warm with this one. |
a ___ song ____
suicidal and ++++yea=++
Mostly thought of my own war,,
Fuck-en I mean Fuk-em all >>//
Dealing with Allen , and with our map moly upside down,, The souce of God Is <<
well,I was touch
|| Posted on 2019-01-07 00:00:00 | by teika5 | [ Reply to This ] || Well, my friend this doesn't only happen to you. I have learnt that to fight it is just a waste of time an energy. The best thing to do appears to be to let thoughts be and ignore them. |
If you concentrate too much on one thought and you get upset by it then you somehow empower that particular idea and it gets stuck.
I have been trying meditation to deal with this issue and it has yielded good results. It's not something on which you will succeed right away for it is a hard thing to do, meditation I mean. If you ever try it you have to be willing to feel frustrated but the key is not to give up. I have been doing it for a few years and I still find my self getting distracted and lost by random thoughts or the voices you happen to mention in your piece.
When I started meditating I used some you-tube videos just to learn how to do it or to have examples. I have also attended some meditations sessions in my town.
A good book to be read is "The power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. You can find it in PDF on the internet, if you are interested. I was going to offer it to you but I suddenly remember that I read it in Spanish. My psychologist recommended it to me. It is, in fact, the book that got me started on all this.
I have also read other books on the subject. I have found out that reading self - help books helps a lot. One can actually change one's perception of the world, as well as behavioural patterns by doing so.
As for some suggestions regarding your write, I would only recommend to alter the line breaks concerning line 1 and 2 so as to make them flow better.
|| Posted on 2018-12-18 00:00:00 | by Ethan Brody | [ Reply to This ] |