One OF Millions -------------------------------------------
One in a million... Dreams are dreamt every single day. Dreams of being the one in a million. Dreams of living happily and thriving in a world that is yours. But I don't have dreams. I have nightmares.
I'm not one in a million. I'm just one OF millions of people who's dreams are crushed before they could ever be dreamt. One OF millions who have nightmares. One OF millions who struggle to communicate properly with others. One OF millions who feel like a child for the rest of their life. One OF millions who are tormented by their past. One OF millions who suffer day in and day out inside their own heads.
I used to think I wasn't normal. But, unfortunately, in the most fucked up way, I am. It is a sad reality to realize just how many millions of people are used and abused as children and end up with fucked up lives as adults.
To all my one OF millions, stay strong, you are worth more than anything you've been through. Your life has value and you are beautiful. I love you.
you're right in this. absolutely. i often wonder if it was ever really different or if people use to bother hiding their problems more in the past. i was never used or abused. i was abandoned and forgotten. i could have gotten over that but i developed a form of schizophrenia on top of a few things i was born with. most of my nightmares are sugar coated because of the medication. i guess my life has value because of my family. loving and helping them seems to give my life value. i like how you turned the tone into something positive with the last stanza. i like it.