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The tears on my face
Do not reflect the pain inside
They only hurt my skin and boil my blood in anger
All of it bubbles inside of my chest
Choking my throat
With the threat of a scream
That never comes out
And yes I too want for me to smiles
And no I can't give one true answer
As to why
Only that there is so much
Because of so many things
And I want you so badly
For you to just hold me
But I know I have thorns all over my body
And no matter how you try to hold me
It'll only hurt you
And how can I expect you to
Hold me
Like that?
I just want for you to say that it's okay
You're going to love me anyways
And you do
But I don't
Love me at all
Right now
And I'm sorry
That's what I am
Just sorry
For my existence
For my brain
For my heart
For my tears that appear
Too often
I may have these thorns on my body
But inside lives this softened
Fragile heart beating wildly
Anxiety that it'll break apart
I just need to think it out some more
Maybe
Wait until I feel not so crazy
And eventually I won't care for awhile
Numbness enveloping my thoughts
Until I feel excitement
Turn back into anguish
This torturous void of just
Anger and sadness
Emotions I can never escape.