shadows in my room -------------------------------------------
i remember those days
heading for the bottom
you were there in a way
swept into the conundrum
i can't escape my reality
subjective as it may be
i never knew you
and you never knew me
hard to get my hands around
i know you've lost your grip
a part of me should know by now
i'm on a sinking ship
little notes like memories take the saner side of me
and i am swept into the fantasy, binging on the remedy
burn it out, and leave embers for tomorrows fires
i'll keep it under tongue lest the sickness make me a liar
four to one odds on the chance that i'll collapse
looking for an answer to the voices in my head
i've heard you die a thousand times so it's no surprise when you leave
tomorrow asks for order and borrows me a song
let me believe that it's all a dream
cuz it's impossible to know, and harder to see
i've lost my patience to the trees
contracting syptoms of a disease