Nothing unclear here, it all seems perfectly perfunctory. My usual personal positive perspective precludes passive punctuation. That is to say, your work here is perfect about being perfunctory, and I especially like "the pitter patter of my pity party" for obvious reasons.
In a perhaps over-reactionary moment of disgust with some things on-going with on-line things, I tore down my relatively newly formed blog wherein at some effort I had posted a lot of my poetry (much available here), as well as comments and articles from an earlier blog.
The devil made me do it? What do you mean Lloyd, did the devil make you tear it down or did he make you start it in the first place? Hmm, in hindsight I guess it could have gone either way but the relative point is that it is gone. I guess I felt the need for a change of routine. The optimist in me would call it "growth", or something like that.
Not to fear, my stuff here at Elite Skills remains. ;)