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Laxative Abuse

Author: majorrisingstar
ASL Info:    17/f
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Words: 269
Class/Type: Poetry /Serious
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Well this poem ios kinda a draft copy but this actually happened earlier today. i fainted in the kitchen because i was dehydrated from laxative abuse. i thought i was going to die. But god gave me another chance.

Laxative Abuse

Just 6 laxatives will do the job,
Make me feel clean and free of calories,
Last time it was painful but it’s been a while,
I’ve taken more without any discomfort,
Popping the pills in my mouth one by one,
They taste so sweet to the tip of my tongue,
But so disgusting to my conscience,
I tell myself
It’s going to be alright,
Laying in my bed I see a black fog hurling over me,
I wake up,
Body swelling,
Feeling nauseated,
Going to vomit,
Heavy stomach acid escape my mouth,
Heavy body and feeling so weak,
I can barely see what’s in front of my eyes,
I tell myself
It’s going to be alright,
I lay back in bed after stumbling through my room,
Wake up and need to go toilet this time,
So dehydrated my lips are chapped,
I take slow steps,
Grabbing a piece of bread and force feeding myself,
But it wont do down,
Everythings blurry,
My hands shake as i bring the glass to my lips,
Taking a sip but still dehydrated,
I tell myself,
It’s going to be alright,
I can no longer hold myself up,
I fall to the floor,
Body lifeless,
Taking hard breathes in and out i call out for help,
I’m dieing,
So many times i wanted death,
Needed death to rescue me from fearful situations,
Now i was fightin g for my life,
My bodys sweat is soaking my clothes,
Words excape my mouth slurring,
I dont want to die,
Family trying to recover my health,
Tell me,
It’s going to be alright.

Submitted on 2004-08-11 16:39:36     Terms of Service / Copyright Rules
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  This is very raw and honest, but it needs to be. I hope you can get over this because in your picture you look gorgeous. It really scares me how many girls go through this. Some of these messages are very insensitive. If you were writing about overdosing on cocaine, they'd think it was the greatest thing since sliced bread. You CAN get better. *Hug*
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by cuddledumplin | [ Reply to This ]
  Damn - um thas pretty hardcore. I've found that when you want to dehydrate quickly seltzer water is much faster, preferrably through a straw. I can't imagine what that must be like tho - I hate defecating lately - inconvenient and uncomfortable. And you bring it on purposefully? Must be a powerful urge that, wanting to feel clean of calories. This gives me alot to think about.
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by particularshard | [ Reply to This ]
  im not real good at poetry so i don't know if my comments will mean much to you but i'll say them anyways. I liked it . I do alot of free verse myself. i thought it was very deep. personal experiences usually are. im glad ur ok. u r a very beautiful girl and u r too young to worry about calories. i hope u realize this.
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by _Joeysgirl_ | [ Reply to This ]
  a very honest piece you got here. But the previous post was right, with the "6 laxatives" intro... kinda threw me off track, but you belted it pretty good. Very raw, honest, and I could feel myself getting sick too. Hope you're feeling better after the ordeal, and God gave you a second chance so good luck :)
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by 4trackmind | [ Reply to This ]
  alright, its going to be alright. lol, well written, but at first i thought it would be a commedy... lol, its hard not to write a comedy when it starts with something like "6 laxatives" lol, did this really happen? i hope not, it must feel hella bad...yuck...
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by WD20x2 | [ Reply to This ]
  it's hard to critique a write like this, saw raw and honest. i suggest you get help. you say that God gave you another chance, so take that chance by the balls and go get help. your honesty was refreshing yet brutal.
| Posted on 2004-08-11 00:00:00 | by magnicat | [ Reply to This ]

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