All I know is, I was so intrigued,
had never met anyone who had such an affect on me...
I'm still in awe from everything about you.
So much that I did the unfathomable,
changed my identity to seem more appealing
knowing that I was being so deceiving.
between the image and the real woman
"you don't know my name"
began to take on a whole new meaning.
See, I wanted to share my world with you
by being your friend, but I wanted more than that too.
Even though I wear these rings, my heart isn't in it
and I tried to give all my love to you.
Like Donnell Jones said, "all her love
but only half the time"
well papi, you were NEVER second best
because you were always on my mind.
So much that it makes me question why
I can't seem to get over you no matter how hard I try...
You would think it to be easy, especially since hearing you say goodbye...
Which is such a bitter word
when it is used to end something forever...
All I can do is sit and cry in the day but even more at night
thinking about the mess I've made
having no reason why and no way to justify
the pain I've caused, from which I am paying for dearly,
wishing I could go back in time, and steer myself clearly........away from misery lane.