It used to be so easy, I knew just what to do.
But now it all feels so different, I relate so much to you.
I feel like Im learning to walk, when I thought I already knew how.
Iím thinking too much about this, I need to stay in the now.
Do I even want to do this? Is this how I want to feel?
Is this the only way, for people like me to heal?
I used to be so good at this, boys were just my thing.
But its all changed so suddenly, and I donít know anything.
Except that I'm so scared, regretful and excited.
Why do I have to go into this, feeling so damn frightened?
It all seems too hard, it takes effort I donít need.
Especially if it ends up yet again, leaving my soul to bleedÖ.