Description: The mass is the name I've given to this presence that keeps visiting sporadically during the night (mostly) but also during the day. When "visited", I am helpless and unable to speak. Not able to move and there is a struggle to get my body back to listen to the instructions given to it by my head.
Hope this comes out clearly in this poem. Any comments are welcome.
Checked out the advise from my "Brilliant friend" and found the following. Feel real good that I'm not the only one experiencing this, but suddenly sad, that it is not something from another plane or level visiting me.
What is sleep paralysis?
Sleep paralysis consists of a period of inability to perform voluntary movements either at sleep onset (called hypnogogic or predormital form) or upon awakening (called hypnopompic or postdormtal form).
Sleep paralysis may also be referred to as isolated sleep paralysis, familial sleep paralysis, hynogogic or hypnopompic paralysis, predormital or postdormital paralysis
What are the symptoms?
A complaint of inability to move the trunk or limbs at sleep onset or upon awakening
Presence of brief episodes of partial or complete skeletal muscle paralysis
Episodes can be associated with hypnagogic hallucinations or dream-like mentation (act or use of the brain)
Polysomnography (a sleep recording) shows at least one of the following:
suppression of skeletal muscle tone
a sleep onset REM period
dissociated REM sleep
Is it harmful?
Sleep paralysis is most often associated with narcolepsy, a neurological condition in which the person has uncontrollable naps. However, there are many people who experience sleep paralysis without having signs of narcolepsy. Sometimes it runs in families. There is no known explanation why some people experience this paralysis. It is not harmful, although most people report feeling very afraid because they do not know what is happening, and within minutes they gradually or abruptly are able to move again; the episode is often terminated by a sound or a touch on the body.
In some cases, when hypnogogic hallucinations are present, people feel that someone is in the room with them, some experience the feeling that someone or something is sitting on their chest and they feel impending death and suffocation. That has been called the “Hag Phenomena” and has been happening to people over the centuries. These things cause people much anxiety and terror, but there is no physical harm.
What else can you tell me about sleep paralysis?
Some people with disrupted sleep schedules or circadian rhythm disturbances experience sleep paralysis
A study found that 35% of subjects with isolated sleep paralysis also reported a history of wake panic attacks unrelated to the experience of paralysis
Sixteen percent of these persons with isolated sleep paralysis met the criteria for panic disorder
How can I stop the sleep paralysis?
In severe cases, where episodes take place at least once a week for 6 months, medication may be used.
You may be able to minimize the episodes by following good sleep hygiene:
getting enough sleep
exercise regularly (but not too close to bedtime)
keep a regular sleep schedule
The Mass -------------------------------------------
Many years have passed
Yet you are still with me
Are you a figment of my dreams?
Are you real?
Are you more than real and beyond my understanding?
Or simply just a part of my imagination
At first you were just an immense pressure
Holding me down
You evolved into an unrevealed terrier
Viciously growling in my left ear
Yet holding me down
Last night you were part of a trio of ladies
Speaking inaudible whispers
Gently holding me down
Yet with the same intense pressure as always
Most of the time you scare me
Screaming but my lungs are hollow
Like the air is anxious to be inhaled in your presence
My limbs ignore my plea to move
Like a marionette without any strings
I'm helpless and scared shitless
Sometimes I’m not scared at all
Feeling unbelievably humble
And vulnerable in your shadow of nothingness
The adrenalin rush
Lifts me high
Experiencing fear and excitement simultaneously
You have never harmed me
Not physically atleast
You never come when I lie on my back
Deadened nerves and a colourful imagination?
You remain a mystery
Oy vay... this is almost exactly what I was about to suggest might be happening to you. A friend of mine had similar sensations and he spoke to a friend of his who had been diagnosed with "sleep paralysis". He got it checked out; and it turned out that my friend had "sleep apnea" (breathing trouble with sleep). Oh well... I hope your discovery of the problem puts you on the path to recovery! :)
I'm glad you explained. It is nice to figuire out what it is that bothers your sleep. What is your next step in dealing with this? This poem it very nice. It;s a great explanation for your sleep disorder. Tameson
I loved this! I loved the ending! (OMG, I'm writing the stereotypical "bad comment"). First impressions... first impressions... (trying to get unexcited and calm and collected here).
I loved the way that this sounds ** completely ** like an inner monologue; a conversation with the masses in your head. Perhaps this is why the ending is so good -- the exclamation "Funny, you never come when I'm on my back". It sounds like a complete brain dump. That was nicely done.
And while I am enjoying your descriptions of it, I do hope that if this is a real life-experience for you, then you are talking to some knowledgeable person about it. Or perhaps you don't want to lose the sensation. Hmmm... well, no judgement.
Hey buddy. I have actually experienced a sensation like this. Only once though. I had (and still have) no idea what it is / was. But i actually know exactly he feeling you're talking about (i think), and you describe it very well and accurately. Some of your imagery is very appealing and appropriate to the subject matter. I really enjoyed this poem. Particularly this stanza:
'At first you were just an immense pressure Holding me down You evolved into an unrevealed terrier Viciously growling in my left ear Yet holding me down Last night you were part of a trio of ladies Speaking inaudible whispers Gently holding me down Yet with the same intense pressure as always'
Overall, very enjoyable and a well written poem. Oh yeah, sometimes leaving a request in the shoutbox does work. You owe me one ;-)Thanx for your words.
take out the last stanza and use a synonym for immense(ly) or any form of that word, because three times in such close proximity is not a good idea. otherwise, that the entire of my advice, the rest is great. I dont think this is so much scary as it is mysterious. i can dig it.
Wow! I don't know what to say. I feel afraid after I read this. Are you more than real and beyond my understanding? Or simply just a part of my imagination Nice phrase. This poem makes me want to come and get you and take you away from wherever you are and from whoever is harming you. Keep writting and get out. Tameson