In spite of reinvention, I have remained unsure.
Who have I always been, aside from insecure?
In spite of recreation, I have still much to do.
When the sun goes down much too soon, where are you?
In spite of innovation, I have remained outdated.
For, beyond the beliefs of my elders, I still remain sedated.
In spite of motivation, I have ceased to understand.
Why did you leave? Why won't you hold my hand?
In spite of infatuation, I know not what went wrong.
For the longest time I thought, I'm supposed to stay strong.
In spite of practicality, I decline to mature.
Even when I change constantly, nothing seems obscure.
In spite of new intelligence, I feel no need to think.
For my days of R.E.M have just begun to sink.
In spite of reality, I wish not to face the truth.
When the flowers wilt upon my pedestal,
There's no such thing as a dying youth.