My father paid for his sins in full
At the time such attempts were just cock and bull
Now I'm cocked to pull
And the triggers cold
In the fire of life
Feeling ancient and old -
Same as it ever was
But i don't feel wise.
Just because I'm scared I fire eyes.
I forgive all your wrongs,
Someone must still pay for mine.
Forgive me? Not that strong.
You must do what your heart and your loins
And if they don't consult your head,
That engenders no hate -
At least not in my mind
But its not that I'm kind -
I was raised to see other things
And to this I am blind.
Truly I'm flattered
Though it isn't my way
Still it never mattered
Many friends wanted to play.
This is not my fault
So you should not be punished.
It took me so long to get you
And I wish that I hadn't,
Since now some of the things you say
Leave me in sadness.
Its hard to not be materialistic,
When you've never had shit.
And it seems special to have your mind respected
When its never been fit.
You don't even know how to be properly courted,
And you even try to court me!
And that's not really important,
Merely trying for me.
I would love to be had
But for now no one can have me,
For now I have to be bad,
But you don't have to be treated badly.
That man wants you as a prize
And you're better than that,
But I want the world and the skies,
That's just where I'm at.
What does it mean to you?
To me its something I just do.
Though the fault is only partially mine,
So you will not be punished.
I know that you’re sorry
You did all you knew how
And it was more than enough
But I'm just not allowed
To be much better than I was
Because that's who I am
And my words can't be wrong
Even from within a beer can.
It broke my heart the other day,
To see you frantically try and hide,
To walk just a little bit faster
And to not see my eyes.
The issue that night was big,
Bigger than you could ever know,
And even if you did I wouldn’t hold you to it –
Your mother poisoned you with dope.
The shame of it all
Was your ill-thought out crush –
God forbid someone so kindhearted
Might fall for a lush!
Its not at all your fault.
You must be punished.