the phone rings -------------------------------------------
as she slides the knife across her skin she screams
whatever happened to its a wonderful life?
considering nobody really knows her
nobody should really miss her
as she thinks about it she realizes
she knows so little about herself
how could she except anyone else to figure her out
in her grey world her red blood seems sacred
so the time she spends with the knife
becomes her favorite
her thoughts on life were that we all live to die
and dying was all she cared to do
not it was time for the pills to take her away
but before she swallows that bottle the phone rings and for some reason she answers
the voice says
"hey hunny its dad, i just wanted you to know i'll be home tomorrow, i miss you, i love you, and i hope all is well"
and suddenly she feels better
everythign seemed to be okay for the next five minutes that they talked
when she hung up the phone she realized how close she just was to death
and she laughs until she cries because now she has something in her life to look forward to
the next day comes and the phone rings again
the voice says
"hey hunny, sorry i won't make it back into town today"
and without another thought the bottle she thought she'd never touch again was in her system
she looked in the mirror and waved goodbye to the world that she never really knew but all the same never really knew her
Submission Name: the phone rings
