You don't know how much this hurts me.
To say these things I don't want to say, but have to say them either way. I was hurt and hurt badly, Much pain did I forego. By someone I thought wonderful, though plain it was for all to see, all pain inflicted he did enjoy, And much pain did he inflict on me.
Now that he's gone here I remain, safe as safe could be watching fools numerous go by, almost everyone I see. Wanderlust is perceived, yet must be deceived, lest I leave and forget, only to forever regret. Never said I'd wait, I vowed it to myself. Yet wait I do, in vain. Never claimed to hate, yet hate I do, whilst I wait.
You left without saying goodbye, although, I'm sure you tried.
You let her take you, and much pain I did not forget. Memories and photographs are pushed aside, and I toil in sweat to relinquish thought. I can't complain, for it's something I can do, to cloud my mind and erase you. Yet still I've not managed to fully let go.
But the sad thing is you see, I told him how much I love him, but he never did love me. He uttered not a word, or a deed to let me know, That he, my brother, loved me, and thus it did not show.
Now he's my neighbor, and only that, I lock the door and stay safe as could be, to make sure he knows that I know, that he used me.