No Going Back -------------------------------------------
I had everything there was to need
Never thinking of time I'd lose,
Missing the touch of your hands
I wanted to give it all to you
So long after the truth set in
That I was left hurt by you
Now I can't seem to find a place for my trust
I've been wearing my heart on my sleeve too long
It's my time to find someone needing me too
But I'll never forget this:
You were my only friend, disguised as a lover
You were my lover weary from your broken past
I wanted to be the past that left nothing to cover
I wanted to cover you from everything that ever
Turned off the light that guided my life for so long
But I'll go on remembering you
And I'll always wonder where to go
Without you, no choice seems right
What once reflected my inner sun
Now shines with a fading light...
It expresses and makes one feel a deep sense of hurt and forgiveness.The letter to self thrown out into the world for the special someone to know they still have love in a place that was so worth living in but all good things come to their ends to a state where there is no going back to it and the drive must be focused on moving on to the futuristic dynamics of life.
The rhythm is sentimental as the person says they felt obligated to protect the special one from there past haunting them again or something definitely related to that.
This is a poetic conclusion of someone who writes truly of another who is never forgotten and in the thoughts and prayers of the long lost loved one that had a profound touch on their life to a high degree.
As of reading, I wanted to get a grip on the idea of hurt, acceptance, love and remembrance in a periodical fashion laced with some past romance.
Hey rambling, its been a while, eh? Do you still deny that you are a poet, because I have to say, this piece is the most poem-like one that I've read in a while.
I think I like this piece more now than I would have, say, six months ago because of newer circumstances, but I would still have really really liked it.
Like Isaac said this reminds me of a movie, but not a happy one where they're together but a bittersweet one because they know that they're NOT meant for each other, and they know that they will be better off without the burden of the relationship. It's when Ilsa gets on the plane at the end of Casablanca. It's the kind of end that causes the most uncomfortable feelings when you two happen to run in to each other again. I mean exxes with a horribly messy break up can at least feign indifference, but when you see each other after a "we'll still be friends" type thing, and they're with another person it brings out the worse emotions. The type of emotions that make you want to push yourself away from them yet run in to their arms at the same time. you resent and want them at the same time.
I really can't think of any ways that it could be improved or that I would have done differently, but that may be due to a case of summer brain atrophy.
i guess there is no going back man, after something like that. i remember being woke up by the phone conversations, man, it hurt me to hear the pain in your voice. you came around, and crankspit will kick the everyones ass, can't wait man, holy [censored]. i'm talking to neese right now and i'm just remembering the times that we'd get drunk, you remember that sunday when i broke out that bottle, and we got buzzin...at like 1 in the morning? lol...anyway man, wherever you are, this was a good piece of work...i liked it, and could totally see it with music. take it easy old friend.
This reminded me of one of those romantic movies; lacking the ending though. You know, the ones where everything falls apart for a couple. But then, at the end, the couple ends up back together realizing that they are truly meant for each other. I enjoyed this random thought. I've had the same feeling in the past. I'm sorry that you felt you were not needed by this person you speak of in your thoughts. However, fear not! There is someone for everyone... I truly believe in that. Sometimes you won't realize that for a while. And even when you find that one that you need and that person needs you too... it'll be the best feeling ever. But for now... think on... lessons learned... advice for yourself. Cheers to you and good fortune!
Rob, you never cease to amaze me, you should honestly think about starting up a band or somethin, cause you can sing (when you want to) and your lyrics undulate beneath your readers skin. I know you can do it! Keep in touch. I miss you! XOXOXOXOX Jaymi