Lust is such a Bitch -------------------------------------------
I sit here today
Shaking my head in shame
I fucked it all up
Like all the times before
Let him turn and go out that door
Told him no lies
He cried with every word I spoke
I couldn’t help it anymore
I had to just come clean
I never expected him to stay
With all that I did he was bound to go
More times than I can count
Unfaithful to him, I was so wrong
I couldn’t help it though
Lust is such a bitch!
Consumed me too much to the point
I gave in as often as I could
Why I did it?
Shit, I don’t know
The thrill of getting busted
Knowing it would all end if I did
I just couldn’t stop.
An addiction some say
I agree with that one.
You do it so much,
You forget who you are with
I feel for your poem, the faulty design of setting yourself up for failure or giving in to desires/addiction. you seem to know the cards yet intended to play them out exactly as you got/made them, I feel that too, almost as if we are puppets in some sick play, for we cant see the puppeteer but whats even worse is when we find that there were no strings at all and our fate was our own making. who is really controlling who? good job, mike :)
Own your actions you lusty lol! Actually I sympathise with you. It would be wise to work out why you seek that excitement and get it from somewhere else. Im sorry your relatioship has broken down. Break the pattern so next time it doesnt :)
You cause your own fate...look for the first action that causes this one.
succumbed by sin :P...I understand where you are coming from on this...sometimes you just need that attention and then lose control...<shrug> I guess that's why they say monogamy isn't the natural state of humanity. This is a very "primal" instinct as they say, and with the adultry rate at something like 55% or more, you're not the only one. This was quite bold posting this though, and I admire you for you courage in doing so!