Description: My mom says she hates me, and I know she is not well...but words are so hurtful, even if in your heart you know them to be untrue. I have to become distant, I'm not one to pretend feelings...and the worst thing is she knows that about me and still decides on every word.
could this be Mother? -------------------------------------------
I will not be in waiting
For the oncoming pain that seems to follow
The love of you.
My picture of life seems to fade
After the words spill from your mouth
Telling me nothing that makes sense
Just to get this off your mind
The hate you seem to feel for me,
Not being able to be controlled.
I cannot remember
What it is I have done
To deserve the constant beating
With the words you use to describe me.
But today I will have to close this,
Because there seems to be
No ending to this.
And the end result will be
The destruction of my well being
Because I could never say I hated you,
Those words are sour to my tongue.
But I will control this outcome
With the mind life has prepared me with
So I can still look at you
And see the beauty
Your mouth seems to haze.
I couldn't imagine how you must feel. Not only are you concerned about your mothers mental state but her condition is also taking a toll on your own. *deep sigh*
There really is nothing more to say on this piece since it is such a personal write...my prayers are with you and your whole family
omg. i just wanted to say im sooo sorry. u have an unconditional love... and thats so inspiring. that you still love your mom and can still see the beauty through the hurtful words. this gave me chills. if i thought my mom was controlling... it was nothing compared to being told that she hates me. u have a great strength and a strong soul. wow. Cat
it's wonderful you can still be so loving even after your mom seems to have been very unkind. some people should not have children. I have had my difficulties with my mother (when she was alive) and with my children as they have grown up but I could never hate them. now, one of my sisters is a different story! I hope you are really handling this as well as it seems. good write.
Wow, it's very hard to comment an a personal thing such as this. Poetically, who cares (that's twice today I've had to say that) emotionally, all I can give you is sympathy, I read your words poem, too, it's just a lose/lose situation, but I think you're handling it correctly. I just wish you smiles and happiness, I'm sure your world will turn around. Be Happy Graeme
this was plenty good. My mom and older sister kind of had that relationship for quite a while yet they made amends right before it was too late. Sometimes parents dream of their children being better than them, and then they get jealous because they are...and lash out with harsh words and things from the past. Its as if they dont realize that they helped nurture and create the magnificent being that is their child, ya know? Have a good one and keep smilin'
Submission Name: could this be Mother?
