One day everything beautiful faded away,
never to return to my life.
My heart, my soul, my kindness,
replaced by my hate and strife.
I lost who I was that day,
eradicated, replaced with a fake.
I despise what I've grown into,
my reflection is just too much to take.
Easy going, happy go lucky,
long gone, forever, and it's hard to show,
I miss the boy I used to be,
the boy I used to know.
I long for those days when beauty,
just seemed to flourish from hope.
I long for the days of normality,
I long for my hit to cope.
The world used to seem so magical,
so perfect, so innocent, so pure.
But now I see the world as a disease,
and only one person had the cure.
I see crime, I see death, I see loneliness,
I see injustices untold.
Life is a game of poker,
and when you can't bluff you must fold.
I just wish somehow I could show them,
show them what they have done to me.
The never-ceasing longing,
but tragically they will never see.
I wait for the torment to end, miserable and to my dismay,
I long for the moment when I can forget, the day beauty faded away