I have a question, I like a long time ago i yelled at yu for this, but i actually never read it though...
If i did, why didnt you tell me?
Also i have another question but i think i should wait fo ryou to reply first.
You have made me cry with this one Adam. I did forget, I did. I have someone I love now, who doesn't expect much from me. But the thing I'm realizing now is that I will never forget the good times and feelings of when I was with you. I will not remember the bad, I will now remember how fu.cked up our breakup was, but I will remember everything else. And I don't even want to forget. I don't love you anymore pyro, I'm not hanging on to something that is so wrong. We can't be together, it's not right.
I need someone here, someone to hold me. Fred showed me that, and knew he couldn't do that though. But that is what I had longed for all this time, and I was still broken when I had you, I was missing something that I am not sure will ever be filled. But the hole you left in my heart you have filled with this piece. You have put my soul to rest now darling. I am very glad you have been man enough to admit what you did to me, to them as well. I held on, I know I shouldn't have now. You promised to try not to screw things up again, and you did. But I know it was hard. And if I can I might try to call you and read to you what I am writing here because this is not good bye for me. This is only the beginning, the beginning of a life I have always wanted. I have someone to love me, and now, I have a good friend to stand beside me, and for me to help myself. I know this is not a suicide letter, and those foolish souls believe it is. WELL IT IS NOT!
-growl- But either way, I do want to be your friend. I'll be your worst enemy if you really want me to. I'll stalk you and get you worried sick when you are walking the streets at night. I'll laugh my as.s off with you. I'll answer all your questions although I never have the answers. I don't want a knight in shining armor, I want a friend. I'm in love with Frank. And I love it. I can say it proudly. He might be going to a car show with me today. I don't have to hide him from my parents.
But through all that, I offer you my hand, take it when you feel like you are falling off a cliff, I'll help you. I'll be your best friend forever. That is all I can promise you. Just.. don't leave me hanging here. Arm is getting tired, and I want a friend.
I apologize for holding on to you, adding to your misery probably. But thank you for letting me realize what jack a.sses most men are. I appreciate this closing though, I very much thank you. You have ended the first chapter in my book of life, with most resounding effort. Nice job pyro. Not good bye, more like... see you later.
Hey, you know suicide is a COPOUT! any problems you have can be dealt with. Stop this foolishness. Do you think you will enjoy down in the "pits of hell"? Think again. Life is just starting out for you. You are not the only one who has problems. Everyone does. Stay away from negative surroundings. I will pray for you whether you want me to or not. Just think about your family. Do you think your parents want you to do this. No! Is that your goal to hurt them with guilt? You have to realize the hurt will pass but your suffering in the "pits" will always be. Please talk to someone...Wanda
you shouldnt do that...but its your choice. however...you might be hurting those around you by doing it. you think your hurting them now. your wrong. i felt the same way up until a couple months ago. there is a way