My head is confusing, hearts in a spin,
A world that's on fire to hell it is kin.
From start to finish our path has been pain,
Forgotten innocence lying dead and slain.
You came and you left, the truth never knowing.
Though in young heart my pain was growing.
My guiding light I was supposed to see;
A role model to love a person to be.
Instead what you were was the demon of fears,
A shadow of hate that reduced me to tears.
An image in the future of what to guard myself from,
A beacon of warning for all that would come.
Those of my future would be weighed against you,
An invisible barrier they could not break through.
So why in my life have I searched to fill a hole?
Avoid in my heart a darkness in my soul?
A guardian, a protector, I have searched to find
Someone to fill the hole that you left behind.
I may never know the answer to this,
The small simple question of what did I miss?