Description: This was written exactly a week after Flip dumped me. Bear with me, it's long, but if you read it all, I don't think you'll be disappointed. It still brings tears to my eyes every time I read it. I was a different person when I wrote this.
It's incredible how one minute can just drag on and on when you're grieving. I was amazed at how slowly everything passed, and I took it in stages... If I just make it through one minute, one hour, one day, etc. It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life.
You told me you were leaving
I was compelled to stare at your face
You were completely blank as you looked in the mirror
There wasn't the slightest trace
Of that beautiful person that I loved
Your body was just a shell
The outer covering of the soul
Who choose to put me through this hell
I watched you pack your things
Your eyes were completely dead
I sobbed for another try
As I gently kissed your head.
It's only been one minute
Since you walked out that door
Taking all my hopes and dreams
Of the love we had before
Your eyes were so, so cold
Like ice that would not crack
The tears just began and I pray
I pray that you'll come back.
It feels like I've talked for hours
Yet it has only been a short while
I just keep saying that we can't end
I know I'm in denial
How could you just throw me away
I was supposed to be your wife
Or that was my hope for where we would lead
I wanted to share your life
I just can not believe that you left
A part of me has died
I look at the growing puddle
Of the salty tears that I've cried
It's only been one hour
Since I had to tell you goodbye
The house already feels empty
I've just begun to cry
They say I have to pull together
And that I have to carry on
But I just can't keep from thinking
I can't believe you're gone.
I tried to drown my sorrows last night
Tried to numb the pain
These long, lonely hours that pass
Are driving me insane
Are you thinking of me?
Are you wondering if I'm okay?
Or are you spending your time with the one
Who destroyed my life yesterday?
All I can think is that you and I,
We used to be so right
And the hurt won't pass, and the tears haven't slowed
And I still have to see you tonight.
It's only been one day
Since you broke my heart in two
All that was good and happy in me
Walked out the door with you
I try to look past the blackness,
Trying not to look at what I lack
And the wound in my heart that is still so fresh
Says you're never coming back.
I still find it hard to eat,
To sleep, to smile, to take a breath
And though I'll always hope for more
I know that this is really the death
Of all the good times that we had
Your laughter, your smile, and your kiss
Are almost always on my mind
But your love is the main thing I miss
I keep having to watch you walk away
I keep asking you why
The tears just won't stop coming
How much can one person cry?
It's only been one week
But it seems like so many years
The hours stretch and my composure breaks
You'd think I'd be out of tears.
I just can't let you go this soon
I can't just put you away in the past
You are the one I gave my heart to
We had a love that was made to last.
I don't know what to do with myself
It seems it's been so long
Since I held you in my arms and kissed you
I still ask everyone what I did wrong
I know I'll always love you
No one can ever take that away
I've tried to see past the mark you've made,
To forget about those arms in which I used to lay
Sometimes I think I've dried up,
That no more tears can fall
But then I see your happy face
And I can feel it all.
It's only been one year
Since you ripped my world apart
I find that life is dark and cold
Living outside your heart
Somehow I manage not to cry
When I hear your name
You were the only one I ever loved
And I'll never be the same.
This poem hit me right at home! I am sorry to say, but I was in a very similar situation. I recently broke-up with my girlfriend, and this is how she felt. While reading this poem, I began to feel remorse, but then I remember why I did it and all that went away. In this piece it seems like this guy left you for another girl. But my situation wasn't like that. I left because of her, but she is in some deep denial, so therefore she feels like this. But she doesn't want to face the true facts! Whoa! why I am explaining all of this? Anyways I loved your poem! I was actually somewhat emotionally touched! Very few can do!
This was and is fantastic can honestly see why you recommended this one. Am going to look on other ones now this was again amazing. Good to know you've come through this time though and are probably stronger for it now John x
Wow...this was amazing...it's probably not the same thing...but my boyfriend doesn't live near me and everytime he leaves..even though we're still together..it feels like the end of us...goodbyes are the hardest thing on this earth and watching someone leave when all you want them to do is stay...is...unbearable. You captured that so well here...take care ok? Great job. ~hailie~
It seems you needed to pour your heart out, and that's what you did here. It gave away every bit of the emotion that it was written with, and I hope that you're feeling better than how you were when you wrote this. I find it often ironical that some of the best stuff flows out of the pen when the writer feels the worst. Excellent piece of emotion.
That was so good. It really struck a chord. A painful one, but a chord. I strated crying by like the fourth line and didn't really stop until the end. Funny sometimes how the deepest of sorrows can be so beautiful.Not that I'm an expert on love or heartache but it hopefully will get better. So going on my favorites though. Keep up the good work. -catina