When I gave you my body,
I lost all I was before.
When I gave you my heart,
You kept it as you walked out the door.
That night the pain was too intense.
I tried to drown it with alcohol.
And when I took that first pill,
I knew there was nothing left of me at all.
I still saw you every day.
I put on my happy face.
You kept giving me these looks,
From another time, and a different place.
You walked through my door again.
I knew what you were there for.
I had slept with someone else.
Now you wanted to make me your whore.
And we've done this again and again,
And I'm still in love with you
But I lost everything I ever wanted
And now I do these things that I do.
When I fucked you again,
When the liquor made me ill,
When I lied and I cheated,
When I stole all those pills,
When I swore that I'd have what I wanted,
No matter the cost,
That's when I became this shadow,
My innocence lost.