I dont know where its gone so wrong,
Where this whirling pit of hopelessness came from.
I dont know why I feel so rotten,
Why the world keeps dissappearing, is gone.
Its dark inside me, Im null and void
The small things seeming like mountains.
Why has this cycle come around again,
Why can't I shake these feelings?
Im very lost but feeling trapped.
I should be hungry but cant think to eat.
Outside is the company I want so much,
But in here Im safe though a loneliness' feet.
Im so mad at myself for being so weak,
For wanting someone to support me.
But Ive done this alone so many times,
I dont think Im strong enough anymore you see.
God, Im hurting for no good damn reason,
Sobbing and crying like a child in need.
I miss the old me, the one thats become hidden,
because who am now is even pathetic to me.
I want to drink again, I can feel the need.
I wish I could bleed again but I promised I wouldnt.
Im such an embarressment to every person I know,
I tried to fight the depression but I guess I just couldnt. |
Submission Name: Depression
