Life's major desicions
confusing they are.
It isn't how you play this game,
but if you were one of the stars.
Things just didnít go as I planned.
In and/or out of love,
I will never understand.
Falling out of control,
but all the while true to my soul.
I am passionate,
but I can rarely handle it.
I am so in touch with my emotion.
but if they understood
the ďjust to say HiĒ card I wrote them
they would have seen my devotion,
and that I am so very sorry,
that I had to be different,
but I had to be me.
And you know me. I wasn't going to listen.
I knew I would miss them,
but it's the way it had to be, for me.
Trying to be something other than
the usual pretend to beís.
I had to experience this first hand
by myself fucking it up,
falling down and toughening up,
and without anyones help.... getting up.
And of course doing it over and over again.
Itís what I think makes the man.
Some will disagree with me and thatís fine,
but mediocrity isnít my sceneÖ.
I wont apologize, not this time.
For I am living My American Dream.