I'm writing, just writing to me
To show what my true feelings be.
I'm not quite sure just what I feel.
I'm not yet sure just when I'll heal.
The pain of all the news I've learned
Has dug in deep. So deep, it burns.
I can't control these thoughts so strong.
I can't believe the truth so wrong.
I want to think it's all a dream,
But it's more real that it may seem.
I want to make it go away.
Not live to see another day.
But all this time I've lived for him,
And I'll be strong until the end.
I know that there will someday be
Something more than misery.
I know he'll realize what he has
And make it so we'll always last.
But, if he doesn't see it soon,
Then, I'll be gone to walk alone.