I know that the things in life that I want are really common...that I am not the only one in life that is hurt and needs a home and needs love and misses a certain sibling...but the fact that these are common pains won't alleviate how bad it hurts...it can't.
The only things that do ease my pain...even for small bits of time are the drugs that I allow myself to take and the bit of hope that things will ultimately get better. I don't want you to think that I am a druggie, I am not...with all the drugs that pass me by, all the pills that I get offered I really don't do anything...only when I get to the point that I know that nothing will calm me down except maybe a valium...or even half you know? I have seen to many people die in their addictions to be able to stomache much, but when I need it and the occasional weakness on my part I give in.
But again this is not the end of my story...until then I have to go for a bit.Enjoy.