untitled by Dragonslayer

The road ahead of me was dark as death, without a single soul to occupy it, except for me. But I was used to the dark. The dark was shelter from all the things that would hurt me in the light. The trees syaled with the wind, back and forth, back and forth. The leaves were changing colors from green to red, orange, and all the other colors. I might have said it was beautiful, but that would have been a long time ago. Nothing could bring me out of this hole I dug myself in. Nobody would even try.
I walked under an old oak tree, and sat down on its falling leaves. I opened my notebook that I always had with me, filled with all the pains of my life. The page happened to open to the page I didn’t want to read. The page read, “June 14, 2003. The day that I will always remember. I was in my high school, when I was called down to the main office. I thought they would lay blame on me, once again. But, it was…..different. Everyone was in a sad mood, and I knew something happened. But I was hoping nothing did. Maybe they just look sad cause of something else, not me….but, I was wrong. I sat in front of the principal’s desk, and he told me, ‘I’m sorry I have to tell you this. You’re parents, siblings, aunts, uncles……and everyone else you knew…..died in a plane crash this morning. I’m…..sorry.’ I broke down crying, not caring about anything.” Followed by a lot of wet spots, showing that they were tear drops.
More tear drops added up to the ones that were already there. That was two years ago, and I still haven’t gotten over it. I just keep thinking of how life could have been, without all this pain. I opened up a new page, and started to write into it.
“September 23, 2005: Today was another day of loneness. No one seems to want to talk to me. And I don’t blame them. I don’t think anyone wants to know me, with all the pain that’s lurking inside of me, waiting to escape…..well, that’s all I have to write. Nothing interesting happens anymore.”
A branch broke off to my right, and I froze. But I than remembered about another time when it was just a chipmunk. Now, that almost got me laughing at myself. But happiness doesn’t exist within me anymore. Not after that day……
I felt something touch my shoulder, and I swung around, fist flying. I hit something, but I wasn’t sure if it was the tree or a face. I just know that pain erupted from my fist, and traveled all the way up my arm. I cradled my arm, and cursed myself under my breath. I looked at where there could have been someone, and there was a dark shape, but I couldn’t see who it was. I bend down towards the shape, and decided to touch it. I slowly reached out, expecting the shape to jump up at me. But, nothing happened till I touched the shape.
“Alex, you’ve got a good punch, for a girl. Next time I won’t try to sneak up on you,” the shape said from the ground.
I pulled my hand back, and was racing in my head, trying to think of who it could be. The only person that would even try that would be…. “Brian??”
He sighed from the ground, “Yes, it’s Brian. Who else would have even tried to pull that off? But I couldn’t even do that….”
I felt something inside of me coming forth, but it fell back down, like it always did. I thought it was my happy side, but who knows? Brian picked himself from the ground, and I thought he was rubbing his face. “I’m so sorry, Brian. But you know that I don’t like people sneaking up on me.”
“I know. But I thought I could do it, this time.” He walked down to the trail, but he almost fell down to the ground again.
“Were you drinking?”
“Of course. I want to make friends, not like you,” Brian said, while walking away.
Pain came up, again, but I just pushed it down. He didn’t mean that. I hope he didn’t. I picked up my notebook, and ran up to him. “Let me make sure you make it home. Last time you didn’t.”
“Now, that was only because my friends dragged me to some place that I had no idea where I was. And I did get home. It just took me till the next day to get there. HAHAHA!!!” Erupted from Brian’s drunken mind.
“Come on. I’ll get you back. You look a lot worse than last week.”
“That’s cause I was playing this drinking game with someone. It was called….ah, what’s the point? You wouldn’t know. Lets just say that I drank at least…I don’t know. Maybe a keg of beer, by myself. Boy, you popped me pretty good. HAHA. I got punched by a girl!” he erupted laughing, pounding me on my back.
“Whoa. You drank a keg? Isn’t this your second day drinking?” I asked him, worry creeping up inside of me.
“Yeah, and your point is…?”
“You’re staying in my room. I don’t want anything to happen to you,” I told him, making sure my grip on him was tight.
“Oh, you are? And what if I don’t want to?”
“Well, I’ll just call one of the RA’s, and you can get the DPS called on you. You want that?” I asked him, feeling like a bully.
“Alright, I’ll stay in your room. Just don’t do anything I would do.”
I smiled, for the first time in years. “You’ve got a disgusting mind, Brian. You ready for the hill up?”
We were at the bottom of the hill, which seemed to go on forever, up to Valley 2. But, it really didn’t. The hill just goes up for most of it, and than level’s off. It was a task to climb it, but I didn’t mind. It was something that kept me in the here and now.
He smiled down to me, and started to run up the hill. I yelled up at him, “Brian!!” But it was no good. I ran up after him, up the hill, which I never did before. I was panting by the time I was halfway, and the hill got worse from than on. Brian was waiting for me at the top of the hill, laughing. He fell down to the ground, holding his stomach.
I got to the top of the hill, and just fell down to my knees. I heard Brian laughing still, on the side, but I didn’t care. I wanted to get my breath back. After about five minutes, I finally did. I sat back on my heels, and starred at Brian. He finally stopped laughing, but was puking on the grass. I shock my head, and petted his back. We sat there for a long time, and I was surprised that no one walked by. He finally sat up, and looked at me.
“Thanks. Now, let’s sneak by the RA’s of our hall, shall we?” Brian said, maybe the somberest thing I’ve ever heard.
“Ok, let’s go. Just don’ say anything, and you’ll be fine, I hope.” I told him, while grabbing his arm, just to make sure he didn’t do anything stupid.
“Lead the way, bimbo. HAHAHA.