With no regrets, it was now or never
I chose now
Afraid of not making it in time
I said, "but how?"
My heart leaped into my throat, how could this be?
You are being treated for back pain
Can't believe what my eyes now perceive
Strong body, now weak, this is just insane
With love, gently touching your hand, I lean close
Shocked, I will never forget your first words to me
" I AM SO HUNGRY"
Wires, tubes, like a spider'web, going everywhere
Of course, what else, this is Intensive Care
Tape makes your nose appear distorted
Your wish, this to be aborted
Kissing your forehead
I drift into memory
Boarding home, you in one room, Mom another
Neither met, was obvious to me
Sauntering to the bathroom
You stood straight and tall
Eyes trained foreward, no smile
Face hardened, angry with all, I do recall
I nicknamed you "Sour Puss"
Never heard of Spousal Abuse
Wielded by a woman, now your ex-wife
Standing over you, was she; with a knife
A woman with a challenge
You fell in love again, and Mom you did wed
Three teenage girls, one boy; the youngest
You accepted and with joy now led
What a challenge
with courage you did show
We tested you, Pop
to know how far we could go
Exchanged words, you and I
as a teenager will do
In apology, I said "I'm sorry"
on this day I fell in love with you
No longer just a stepfather
I called, "Jim"
Your name is now "Pop"
My teenage anger starting to dim
Your love guiding, showing by example
All men are not the same
Each individual is to blame
How blessed that into my life you came
With love, your arms around me
Showing how much you care
With memories, so sweet
Our hearts and souls we share.
TO BE CONTINUED