I hold the knife close to my wrists
things had become so hard.
the only way to leave it all behind
is for me to do this.
I've thought about it often, for long enough.
The world had become a back sea
and I've been sinking so long, the light above can no longer be seen.
but I never thought the dicision to be so tough.
to have pondered so long, just to use the knife.
With a quick movement, my blood begins to spill.
While crimson begins to form about my feet,
darkness closes in around my world.
For so long i have pondered, wished about this.
and here it is.
Shouldn't i feel happy?
Shouldn't i feel free?
but I feel nothing.
I'm as empty as i was before.
There is a pool of scarlet below me now
when I fall to the floor.
as I lay there dying, I relize my mistake.
I may never have to feel pain, nor cry again,
but what of the ones i leave behind?
Damn....I forgot about them.
With my last strangth, I call the one i love.
With a soft whisper of how sorry I am, that I love him so,
I slowly slip from the world, never to cry, never to hurt.
I grieve for the one that I love.
But at least the love I have for him, he now knows.
I just hope one day he understands.
I never ment to hurt him, never ment to make him cry.
These were my last thoughts, just as I was about to die. |
Submission Name: Last thoughts before i die
