The world around is dark
the air chill and cool
the ground is dank and muck
sucking, grabbing at my feet
my hands, my legs, anything in reach

Voices fill my ears, discouraging and hurtful
trying hard to bring me low
images assail my unseeing eyes
in the dark of my cell, my grave

A knife is lying there,
just beyond my reach
gleaming glittering with deadly promise
speaking of a release that I can't find

But I am not sure if I wish to take it
to take the risk of hurting others
this feeling has taken over
there seems no way out

Meloncholy has settled deeply in my bones
I fought it once before,
no twice did it come
but now my walls are broken
my defenses run to ground

But still somehow I fight
remembering the love I felt
when he had held me in his arms
and whispered things to hold the fear of night

So even though I am alone in life
I am not alone at all
I have a guardain angle
watching guarding me from this gail

I will weather the storms of grief
break through the shields of the past
break free of all the chains and rope
that try to so hard to hold me back

I will fly away from here,
and see the world with new eyes
I will hope and dream until the tomorrow
where together one of us dies