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    dots Submission Name: "Hey Mom"dots
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    Author: PrettyRicki
    ASL Info:    19
    Elite Ratio:    3.71 - 29/49/11
    Words: 609
    Class/Type: Poetry/Depressed
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       Ok...this is probably my deepest thoughts just laid out. My mom passed in July of 2005 and I haven't grasped that she's gone and really haven't come to terms with it. This is me right here, for everybody to see...I cried when I read it back to myself...maybe it'll have that affect on you too


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    “Hey Mom”
    By:Ricki

    “Hey Mom, its me…
    Just figured Id give you a call,
    I been doin pretty good,
    You know…all in all

    I been workin pretty hard,
    A lil overtime here and there
    It has its days,
    But for the most part, its fair

    But, I can’t complain,
    It sure is getting us by
    I definitely ain’t no superman,
    All I can do is try

    And that’s what I been doing,
    Ever since you been gone,
    Ballin and workin…
    Trying really hard to move on

    Mom, Im a strong guy,
    With this, Im fully aware,
    But when you left me…
    I was just so unprepared

    Juan really looks up to me,
    So I know I gotta be strong,
    But Ive become so weak…
    Ever since you’ve been gone

    I sit here and cry…
    When Im all by myself
    Want somebody to turn to,
    But there is nobody else

    You were and still are,
    The biggest part of my life
    Your memory keeps me goin,
    Im really tryna do right…

    But its just so damn hard,
    I wanna see you so bad,
    To hear your voice and laugh
    Its making me so mad

    If I never told you before,
    Ive learned so much from you,
    Broke down barriers,
    Done things Id never do

    They say the good die young,
    Why didn’t they make you the exception?
    Wish they’d of taken me instead,
    They needta make this correction

    I feel so down on myself,
    Where to turn? What do I do?
    Juan and Mariah are lost,
    I know they need you too

    And Im tryna provide them,
    With the best answers I can,
    Keep my head up for them,
    Reassure, them…hold their hand

    But its so hard to do,
    When I cant even do it myself
    When I think of you being gone,
    My heart starts to melt

    You sacrificed it all,
    To give us what we needed,
    I can’t tell you how many times,
    Ive gotten on my knees and pleaded:

    ‘God, I know you got a plan,
    For every person you create,
    But you’ve taken my soul from me,
    So now, my life has been a waste.

    Id give anything,
    Just to talk with her one last time,
    Take my life and make it official,
    Im already dying inside

    I need her, they need her,
    God don’t you understand
    If you wanted me to grow up,
    You did it, Im finally a man

    So if that’s what you wanted,
    There, you finally got it,
    Wake me up from this dream…
    God its time to stop it

    Bring her back, please…
    Ive learned my lesson,
    You’ve punished me enough
    Let it be the end of this session

    If your not gonna do it,
    Then I wanna say goodbye,
    I didn’t get that chance before,
    Before I knew it…she died

    I still got faith,
    But Im really mad at you
    I need her here beside me,
    To help guide me through’

    But Mom, he don’t answer,
    He’s not helping me out
    Another tear falls,
    As each word comes out my mouth

    My words are starting to jumble
    And I can’t catch my breath,
    Torture is what Im feeling
    Pure heartache and nothing less

    So Mom, I’ll go for now,
    My eyes are sore from crying
    The right and left side of my heart
    Is constantly dividing

    Please know I love you,
    More than words can say
    One day, God will grant my wish,
    And I’ll be with you some day






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      *deep sigh* well...yes it did have the same affect on me as i read it...I was teary eyed until i got to this part "I need her, they need her,
    God don’t you understand
    If you wanted me to grow up,
    You did it, Im finally a man" then I couldn't contain the tears...wow...thank goodness i'm wearing water proof mascara...

    With the passing of a loved one...especially someone who is a corner stone of our lives we question the why's till we are blue in the face...Why now? why them? why not me? I wish I could reach through and give you a hug and tell you something that would bring comfort but there are no words nor a touch that can bring back what once was...as so I can only offer my prayers for you and your family...

    much luv

    Tina
    EGB
    | Posted on 2005-12-17 00:00:00 | by Brownsdelight | [ Reply to This ]
      I am so sorry to hear of your Mom crossing over, I am sure she would be very proud of you; handling yourself as you are doing, holding the family together with love, dignity and respect.

    Death is said to be the absolute one thing we can be certain will happen to us. But, knowing this does not help to ease the pain felt. As I still have my Mom, I can empathize with you, understanding the sorrow of lossing a loved one. Two years ago, my Dad crossed over, I was lucky enough that we had no unresolved issues between us, only mutual love and respect for each other. But this didn't stop the squeezing of my heart, called heartbreak, you see it was not his age, as was one thing you have problems accepting, but it was the reason he crossed that troubled me. This can be read in my poem, "Without Regret (Intensive Care) Parts I and II. And then, in March of this year, my Mother-in-law crossed over, I loved her as if she was my own Mom, more grief. And, then in August we had to have our dog, Annie, euthanized. I know a lot of people don't think dogs should have the status of family member, but indeed that is what she was and is, she was my best friend and my protector. Annie saved me from an attempted rape by placing her body and bearing teeth between the attacker and myself, to me, this is indeed what constitutes being called a family member.

    I know there is really nothing I can say that will ease the pain, but believe me, no matter how long or short the time may be that we have together, just think of how different things would have been if your roads had not crossed each other.

    I pray, God bless you and carry you in this time of sadness, loss, and mourning. Carry you until you are truly ready to travel on your road again. May your sad memories of your Mom become sweet once again.

    Yvonne
    | Posted on 2005-12-12 00:00:00 | by dycrain | [ Reply to This ]
      wow a very touching and saddening poem.i want to tell you im sorry but i know like chika said nothing i can say can take the pain away. i wanna say i know how you feel but in all actuality i have no idea of the pain that you feel. im sure your mom would be happy to know she was loved so much. there is so much feeling that it jumps off the page at me and i wanna cry. i cannot imagine how much you hurt and are in pain. i cannot imagine losing my mom, the person thats my one true friend. this is a greatwrite and terrific work...joy adefinate new fave for me
    | Posted on 2005-12-08 00:00:00 | by sweet_rayne | [ Reply to This ]
      wow... this is a beautiful poem. i want to say im sorry for your loss but i know that nothing i can say can help the pain. this is an amazing write and completely emotional. a feeling that is completely unfair, but something that you have to bear. im just sorry that you feel so alone. listen great work sad ane beautiful in the same sense. the emotion in this peice is enough to brin ganyone to tears. a new fave for me...chika
    | Posted on 2005-12-08 00:00:00 | by chikaz4life | [ Reply to This ]
      This is a beautifully sad poem. So heartfelt and emotional with so much sincere feelings throughout this, I am at a loss for words. Your heartfelt emotion is well expressed and you speak your sadness and huge sense of loss and longing throughout this poem. Your rhyme is perfect and the flow here is also well done. This must be a huge loss for you and your siblings. I lost my dad when I was young and it has made a huge impact on my life in general. It must be very difficult for you to deal with and accept. This is such a touching poem. You give the reader a real sense of how you feel. I hope you heal and remain as strong as you seem to be in this poem. Time will help you to accept this immense loss. I hope the best for you. This is a beautiful poem. Take care.

    Lorna
    | Posted on 2005-12-07 00:00:00 | by lmz | [ Reply to This ]
      Young man this poem has touched my heart deeply.
    I wish there were words of wisdom to give to you. I am sure you have heard allot from friends and family.
    I hope that you make it and stand strong for your siblings.
    I tell you that she is listening and that god has heard your plea. I won't tell that things will get better because I don't know that.
    Only you will determine the outcome of all this.
    This write is the beginning of your journey. You will be ok if you believe it.
    I don't know you nor you me but, I feel that you need to be held by someone who will reassure you that it will be fine.
    I am a father of five children and most of them are gone. So as a father and a man I put my arms around you and for a shot time allow you be a child again.
    You will be strong and she is with you.

    Thank you young man for touching my heart.

    Yes, you are a man

    The greatest Respect and Admiration.

    God Bless and be strong.

    Clyde
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by Wisdom Seeker | [ Reply to This ]
      The wisest person i know is my grandmother, She told me once that life was a forge for the soul. That the strongest souls were put into the hottest fires, and hit with the heaviest hammers, and chilled in the coldest waters. But in the end those souls were so strong and so indestructable that they last throughout eternity and are always as sharp, as bright, and prized.
    The Words of this poem are strong, emotional and personal. I hope it helps you to know that you are okay.
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by Atrip187 | [ Reply to This ]
      This was a powerful testament to your mother's influence/love/direction/strength, and her attempt to instill these virtues in you and the other children. There's not a single line of this lyric that doesn't resonate loss, anger, pain and sorrow, but, by the same token, there isn't a line that doesn't glow with love and respect for a woman dead before her time. Excellent write, my friend, wish you and your family Comfort and Blessing.
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by rws | [ Reply to This ]
      beautiful peice. i'm so sorry for you.

    stylistically, you did some amazing things, but i won't go into them, they can't mean very much compared to teh topic.

    i believe, from the feeling in this poem, you'll do her proud.


    best of luck.
    Moot.
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by AptPupilofLife2 | [ Reply to This ]
      yeah, it did have the same effect-

    tears were streaming from my eyes as I neared the end.
    the sadness was creeping from each sentance, the wishing & hoping.
    Why?
    The question moved through my head so many times as I read it.
    Its amazing how much you miss them when they are gone.
    You only wish you knew..
    yet one day she was just gone.
    It hurts so much, how much you missed, how much she missed.
    If only she could see you now..

    im sorry..
    just remember that she is always watching over you..always.
    take care
    ~jenn
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by joy7542 | [ Reply to This ]
      Wow...*wiping off glasses*...very emotional. I can feel this in more then one perspective. Me saying this to my mother...and my daughter saying this to me. So...you really got a sista over here tearin up!

    This was so good. You gave it such an inner feeling and so much depth. I can feel your struggles from reading this. I don't know what I'd do the day that my mother parted from me. Just the imagination of it is bad...for it to actually happen...OUCH!

    This was one of your best.

    Li
    | Posted on 2005-12-06 00:00:00 | by Munchie_1226 | [ Reply to This ]


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