Why do you torture me with your ambiguous love? Fighting back tears I blow up your cell phone wishing you’d jus lost your phone... eagerly hoping you return my call. Cigarette after cigarette my mind falls into a distant yet familiar place. A place I try to forget but far too often return, my dark place. A land where my mind roams free in negativity, hatred, and self-doubt. You! The same person who helped me see the light has also become the same one who left me in the dark. A day without you seems like an eternity. I try so desperately to go back to my life before you. Although, it was painful and empty, I was content. Left in a daze with out your touch I’m slowly beginning to jus not give a fuck...again. I was ok! I was happy being conceited, love lorne, God-less, and insecure. And as I sit here alone in my room another night thinking of where I went wrong and let the memories of our short time we spent together tear away my insides. I began slowly detoxing you from my memory, my life, and my heart. The tears are slowly rolling down the cheeks you once kissed so much. I’m not heart broken, I’m spirit broken. That tear in my heart is now a gash. I hope your happy lover; you've broken me down to the tough bruised girl you first meet. |
Submission Name: Detox
