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My Guilt

Author: obaid
ASL Info:    21/M/Gauntlet
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based on my story

My Guilt

A new day, had begun with its gifted sunrise...(from its predecessor)It seemed no different; it felt no different.

Hardly had i known when i stepped in class that i was soon to meet the entity that would change my life... You walked in! With a shy and blushing face you sat down and conversd with your comrade.

IT wasn't your facial or physical appearance that had my attention, but it was your inner beauty... it was your truthful, jolly, frivolous and self-aware soul. I watched for minutes and always managed to look away when your translucent eyes were on mine. The way you talked, the way you smiled and even the way you blinked was an addiction to which i was slowly getting addicted.

Days went by... I could already feel that single emotion that drives any sane person mad. Seconds, I counted till our next meeting and the next and the next and so on. IN my head, I began taping every conversation I was having with you and hung every flashes of time that you looked at me as portraits!

I had finally reached the point when one can't bear it anymore... can't keep it in anymore; but all the times you ever called me 'friend' began to stifle me and choke me so that no words came out, I fought and battled with a weapon called 'selfishness' and eventually succeeded in letting you know about my feelings.

You were all silent; the pain clearly showed on your pale face...I... I didn't want to admit it but the silence echoed it loudly; I had killed you, stabbed you with my weapon for my own sake! I knew that I didn't deserve forgiveness and hence I never asked for it! WHY? Why, did you not curse me?

Time wore off, but my guilt never did! Now, I punish myself because you haven't. I numbed my heart away... so that I can never
love again!

"Selfishness was my sword...
my selflessness was the hilt.
I stabbed you, I killed you!
I made you my guilt!"

Submitted on 2006-01-30 05:15:56     Terms of Service / Copyright Rules
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  WHat's all this, mate?! 'Entity' and 'comrade'?! C'mon! But it is true for me too WORD BY WORD till the fifth paragraph- or rather it was... I have a new ideology of life- I'm sure you'll like to hear it... ALL PRAISE THE OB****! You know what the asterix are...
| Posted on 2006-01-30 00:00:00 | by Saaber | [ Reply to This ]
  hmm...i think (my conclusion) is that this about liking someone, but them not knowing, and then when you tell them, they don't take it that well. I'm not sure about the whole "selfishness" part-unless, were you just so worried about them knowing, that you didn't give anytime to thinking about what the reaction would be?
Otherwise, not too shabby. It gets the story across...

| Posted on 2006-01-30 00:00:00 | by darkwinged | [ Reply to This ]
  Too bad it didn't work out, I'm feeling sorry for you. And I can relate, too almost everything. She isn't in my class, thats' all. And it really changed my life too. And I love the part of the silence adn the question of why she didn't curse you. It would be easier if she did. The silence can really hurt. Very well done, a good sequel to the previous. Keep on writing !
| Posted on 2006-01-31 00:00:00 | by Tom110989 | [ Reply to This ]

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