Description: ok ... I wrote this a number of years ago after I was pregnant at 15. I never told HIM because he decided he didn't have any feelings for me at all. To make a long story short ... HE still doesn't believe I was pregnant and thinks I said it to try to get him to come back to me.
I lost the baby on my 16th birthday.
After that I was angry with the guy, myself, my mom, my doctor, god, everyone and everything.
This is my promise to myself.
My Promise -------------------------------------------
Lost inside my own head
If it weren't for you
I'd probably be dead.
Scared of life
Even more scared of death.
Stuck inbetween two worlds,
My heart in pieces.
I love you for saving me,
I hate you for leaving.
Wishing it would stop,
The pain surges
My entire body tremlbes.
It woud be easy you know
To end it all right this second
BUT to break a promise with you
Would be far worse
than anything that could happen here
All the voices
So many voices
Telling what to do
Telling where to go
When to do anything
I can't find my own voice
they all blend together
But it has become clear
losing you would be worst of all
We have fallen out
said good-bye
Even cried a few tears.
But my promise I keep
You showed a wolrd
of trust
of love
of how life is supposed to be
Then you ripped it all away
The trust violated
The love gone
you sent me for another loop
But you knew me
Better than any other
Scared of life
Scared of death
Even more scared
of breaking that promise
You toyed with my emotions
put me in a mess
I'm still sorting it all out
but through all this
I still love you
If it weren'y for you
I'd probably be dead
I've always wanted you to know
Why do I still love you?
Still trust you?
Because you saved me.
wow, i just got really into this. made me think about life and love and just...everything. it sounds like you had a hard time, you should be glad you got through it okay.
its a strange piece its kinda intoxicating um im pretty sure this is free verse right? i cant tell u if its good or bad its kinda on its own you know its pretty good.
Submission Name: My Promise
