Description: Basically, I know that one day I will have to share the secrets I've guarded for so long, with my parents, I just don't know when I'll be ready, or how they will react. Just me mulling over that. Advice would be great, as the issues I've hidden are quite serious, not just your typical fifteen year old type thing.
Day of Reckoning -------------------------------------------
Watching, waiting until the time is right
To unlock the secrets of my heart,
From where they’ve been hidden for so long.
Until then, my words fall on deaf ears,
As fearful, half-hearted lies cover the truth,
Accepted only because they want to hear the truth
As little as I want to say it.
But the day will come when it cannot be avoided
And fears must be confronted.
Nobody can know the way it will be,
After my day of Reckoning.
But the question is not if it will come,
It is when will it come?
When shall I be able to tell
The darkest secrets of my heart,
The secrets of my soul that I have hidden
And protected fiercely from discovery.
I long to know if I will still call myself theirs,
Or if I shall turn on heel and defend for my own.
Ouch! I feel your pain sometimes but when I plan on telling my parents my secrets I am going to laugh or I just may not simply tell them at all, but from this poem its easy to see you're anxious for this day to come, but instead of being completely scared you still have pride and power within when you say:
"Or if I shall turn on heel and defend for my own."
That shows you're not so easily going to stand down or be subject to your parents authority, so I am assuming this Day of Reckoning will come someday in the future when you are no longer their little girl. Good luck!
I can see this decision has been bothering you for a long time I can also tell from how emotional this write is that you almost feel the time is approaching quickly to confess Do not be afraid go with your Heart I see your Heart is very Loving it will not let you down God Bless Ron
You described your situation very good. It's something I can relate to. I'm keeping serious secrets for my parents, because I don't want them to know. Instead, I trusted a close friend to tell most of it. But I think it's different in your situation. You want to tell your parents, but are afraid to do it. I think it's something you have to do, and i think you'll feel better when sharing. After all, they're still your parents (you are theirs) and if they care about you, they'd like to know what's bothering you so much. Good luck
Very intense. I like the fact you were out there with your feelings and how you are at the point the truth must come out. My advise is to tell your parents and get this agonizing over with. The sooner the better. Don't make excuses, tell the whole truth and and expect them to be hurt and shocked, but that will not stop there love for you. I hope things work out for you. Nice work.