i know this post is an expression of how you feel. But from a third person point of view it seems that you have some confused/contradictive feelings about your "Depths". As i read your words i could definetly relate and understand what your "depths"consist of. seems to be a lack of self worth or esteem. Depression i think could actually be defined by your first stanza- "I donít wanna think I donít wanna breathe Teetering on the brink Of wanting to be"
its ironic that the place in your head is filled with dead thoughts and space. but at the same time its peaceful. i can relate.
Pain is love some say, so being who he wants you to be makes sense, but deep down you make your own experiences through the choices you make, conscious choices you make so...
and it doesnt really make sense for you to kill your insides just to be with someone you love.
MY point of view is my own, im sure you can relate on some of my points but im sure most of this doesnt make sense. but thats why i like this site..