One night I took a stroll down the middle of the road. It was midnight, and everything was absolutely beautiful. The moon caught the snow, creating a subtle glow. There weren't any cars around, just me and the sky. Living in the country definitely has it's advantages.
I couldn't sleep, with all the thoughts running through my head, thinking of him.
Looking up, I could see the stars, glinting so far in the distance, sending chills up and down my spine, radiating through my whole body, from head to toe. I suddenly remembered how much I loved the thought of infinity out there, the endless savanna of space. The fact there could be something else out there...
And then I remember that time we were laying outside at two in the morning. It was at a party, and we were star gazing. He turned to look at me, and told me he loved me and that nothing would ever happen to us. Afterwards, it started to rain, and we stripped and danced together at two in the morning under the lightning show, with the thunder wildly applausing us.
We were going to be the High School couple- the ones who stayed together until the Earth shattered into a billion pieces.
But things happened.
We were both almost twenty, and already sophomores in college. We were across the country from each other, but we made it work. We called each other, and met every weekend. We were a match made in heaven.
And then, the one and only weekend I told him I wouldn't be able to make it because of a monster paper that was due, the weekend of my birthday, he decided to come and surprise me with a huge dinner. My parents knew about it, and never told me.
I was sleeping. It was exactly four in the morning, when my phone rang. I answered it, only to hear my mom say:
"I'm sorry to be the one to tell you..."
After that, the tears came, and I didn't hear anything else.
Ten minutes later, I was dressed and in my car, to go see that this truly did happen; that it wasn't a nightmare. But I didn't stop to see.
I drove and kept on driving, not stopping until I had driven out of the city; the state. When I reached the West Virginia line, I pulled over and exploded. I remember yelling at the sky, the car, the road, the snow, but most of all, God, for allowing this to happen to the one I loved, the one that was my life.
The next thing I remembered was being hugged some stranger from a house nearby. It was an elderly lady, with wiry gray hair and wrinkles covering her face. She walked me inside and offered me cookies and milk, which I had accepted. Sitting down across from me, she asked me what was wrong, so I tell her...
I think about how it's now been five years.
I realize now that silent tears are falling down my face. No...it's actually rain. The first rainfall of the year.
I'm now laughing and sobbing at the same time, and as a flash of lightning streaked across the sky, I stripped and danced to the wild applause of thunder...this was my way of letting go of him...
"Every night I dream of you
And every day that passes by
The pain of you fades a little
I will never forget you." |
Submission Name: Finally letting go
