Description: really long i know but this is just something i needed to get out. In case your curious its about my own little family feud and how it seperated someone really close to me
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I’ve lost count of the years and there are mornings where
I don’t even know your name
When I do, my heart seems to sink in disbelief
It still can’t accept that you’re gone for good.
I remember a time when it was just you and me
Singing to Gloria Trevi and playing with Barbie
If it wasn’t for the pictures I would not believe
That we knew a time so pure
I left and it wasn’t by choice.
If I would have had it my way the miles wouldn’t be long.
We grew up in different worlds
Each struggling with demons and ourselves
We fell in love and got hurt through the years
Yet our arms never extended to find comfort in each other.
Being reunited was the best thing for me,
I had found my sister; it was meant to be.
I didn’t know at the time but this unison was a curse.
A family feud was the death of me.
How many times must evil prevail?
How many times must I watch my soul be ripped apart?
You told me once that family was important
So where does that leave me?
What are those things that don’t let you forget
As I recall this incident wasn’t planned
What was so horrible that you cannot forget
Becoming friends see that’s what I don’t get
You and I were never friends
You and I were something more than that
The past is haunting me
Images of our childhood are killing me
I lost you and I don’t even know why
I lost you and I don’t even know to what
I have so many questions
And I laugh at your words
You think I hold no resentment?
What do you expect when I lost everything?
How could you sit there and calmly blow me off
Why would you tell me I can’t change the past?
Don’t you get it?
I’m not trying to change anything
I can’t gain what I once lost
I know that it’s gone
All I want is to find my way to you again
To heal old wounds if not with everyone
At least with myself
I resent you for giving me up
But my love and hope for family
Is stronger than the darkest of hate
Hmmmm...very long, yes, and a little confusing at times, but it was a very decent write.
I can almost relate, considering I'm going through a very difficult time right now myself, but I don't quite understand your situation and I wish I did so that I could help in some way.
This sounds like you want the person back, but at the same time you are almost afraid to get them. You also, however, sound angry and frustrated with the way that person treats you. Hence, I am a little confuzzled, but eh. ^_^
It was a wonderful write. Hope that you are able to pull through this hard time...I'm still trying to myself.
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