.............you wake up every time it rains
if refusing to define love is copping out,
i'm willing to admit i'm terrified.
i won't write because i'm
afraid i'll miss something.
but if i have to try,
then i guess i will.
i don't like stanzas,
& this isn't finished
it's choppy times
infinity, but i'm
experimenting.
& for now i'm okay
with letting you read this.
(i still maintain that
to define is to underestimate
...& you have underestimated me.)
she's reading a magazine & he's thinking about how to make things better. he lights one of her cigarettes, second guesses himself & puts it out while he thinks she isnt looking. she glances at the ashtray & smiles at his latest attempt to make them fit, when all along, there werent any gaps to fill.
she claims we've been cursed with composure, & thats all your maturity has come down to.
she makes sure he knows that she's counting his stutters, the number of times he walks around the room - anything to hint at him being weaker. but his real problem is seeing her clearly at all the wrong moments, & letting himself believe that losing time doesnt mean he's losing her. but now he's giving another meaningful speech that she'll easily minimize,
"if you'd stop acting like
you arent affected.
if you'd stop speaking in examples
& third person...
i swear i would change."
& she smiles politely, gives him room in case he forgot something. he nods a "your turn" & she doesnt even bother to look up from her article on the perfect lipstick, "you shouldnt wait around for me to catch up before you decide to change. i should be worth it." she smiles as she senses his defeat, not because she doesnt love him, but because he's so cute when he's convinced himself that they need logic to stay together.
he sits back down without responding & looks out the window. on a yawn, she breaks the silence, "why do we always end up here?" & he takes the time to look at where they're sitting, & at this room thats been redecorated ten times since they sat here last. & he decides on a sigh, "this apartment is cursed."
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