scars I covered
stains i cleaned
notebooks i burned
i made my rep gleam
my past is gettting buried
in its early grave
to cover my shame
of what i have done
i got help from no one
i did it all alone
tears fell down
i dried my own
razorblade cut
i cleaned my own wounds
i fell
i picked myself up
even though it was hard to do
i didnt have you
not at that time,
the time so dark
when i didnt want to live
when shame consumed me
and death ran rampid
sadness haunted
by parents, my 'great' mind was flaunted
but when they discovered
who i had become
ny life came undone
and again i pulled myself together
kept in the dark
stayed alive, alone
"Never again will i place my heart in their hands"
i vowed.
they never made me happy
always made me sad
always with tears
fueled by fear
of getting let down
again
to feel the pai
of cuts reopened
by tears
sharp as knives
crimson
falls from my wrists
but i stop crying yet again
and staunch the blood
numb my pain
and wipe my tears
from all the years
that i survived
alone... |
Submission Name: I survived alone...
