Two years ago Tuesday
It was brought to my attention.
Two years,
A long time without you.
Cribbage, cards, wine-making,
All things I learned
Or at least hope to learn someday.
You were my hero.
Yeah, you were big.
But tall.
God, I miss you so much!
Why did you leave?
You knew a week before we did;
It ruined my Christmas.
I was devastated,
You and I were so close.
I went to your house
Christmas night.
And I tried to act like everything
Was completely normal.
I was torn up inside,
Dying slowly.
Watching you move from
House to hospital and back again.
It was amazing.
Five total tumors,
And you lasted a month
For each one of those.
You went through
Blood transfusion,
Hospice.
A single bed in the place of your chair.
I didn't get to see you
The last two weeks.
I made excuses
So I wouldn't see your fragile state.
It was heartbreaking,
Watching you lose
All the fat,
Getting skinny against nature.
You were "Santa"
You were loud.
You were my Pa.
You had many nicknames.
You fought cancer,
And it was one of the few battles
That you ever lost
The worst you ever encountered.
And everyone suffered,
As we watched you die.
Everyday things
Became extremely difficult.
I could no longer stand the sight of you.
I wish I could've said good-bye
One last time.
Wish I had the courage
To see you dying.
Tears had fallen
They still fall
Thinking of the things you said
The things you might say.
I sometimes see you
Hear your loud voice.
Tears are forming now...
God, I can't believe it's been two years...
Two years ago Tuesday,
Like an eternity without you. |
Submission Name: Two Years
Hold on to those good moments of him when you need a smile.