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Two Years

Author: darkwinged
ASL Info:    17/F/MI
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This is about my grandpa's death. I don't care what you think, i just wanted to get everything out in the open, all the pent up sadness i have. Any type of comments are appriciated.

Two Years

Two years ago Tuesday
It was brought to my attention.
Two years,
A long time without you.

Cribbage, cards, wine-making,
All things I learned
Or at least hope to learn someday.
You were my hero.

Yeah, you were big.
But tall.
God, I miss you so much!
Why did you leave?

You knew a week before we did;
It ruined my Christmas.
I was devastated,
You and I were so close.

I went to your house
Christmas night.
And I tried to act like everything
Was completely normal.

I was torn up inside,
Dying slowly.
Watching you move from
House to hospital and back again.

It was amazing.
Five total tumors,
And you lasted a month
For each one of those.

You went through
Blood transfusion,
A single bed in the place of your chair.

I didn't get to see you
The last two weeks.
I made excuses
So I wouldn't see your fragile state.

It was heartbreaking,
Watching you lose
All the fat,
Getting skinny against nature.

You were "Santa"
You were loud.
You were my Pa.
You had many nicknames.

You fought cancer,
And it was one of the few battles
That you ever lost
The worst you ever encountered.

And everyone suffered,
As we watched you die.
Everyday things
Became extremely difficult.

I could no longer stand the sight of you.

I wish I could've said good-bye
One last time.
Wish I had the courage
To see you dying.

Tears had fallen
They still fall
Thinking of the things you said
The things you might say.

I sometimes see you
Hear your loud voice.
Tears are forming now...
God, I can't believe it's been two years...

Two years ago Tuesday,
Like an eternity without you.

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  my paternal grandfather died of lungs cancer.
i lost my cousin due to cancer from a tumor.
i buried my friend coz he suffered from brain tumors that turned cancerous.
i wept in front of a friend's dad's grave coz he passed away due to cancer.

u think i got ur poem? i felt it till the very untold emotion! thanx for writing such a poem...means a lot!

| Posted on 2006-04-24 00:00:00 | by obaid | [ Reply to This ]
  I'm sorry he left you, but you have to move on. Even if you're unsure or don't feel strong. Stop and take a second and don't think about what you lost. Think about what you gained from the person you loved. Maybe then people will see, the darkness and lightnesswhen a person leaves.
| Posted on 2006-03-17 00:00:00 | by GOGO1877 | [ Reply to This ]
  Awwww...Very, very good Kass. Cancer took my mother away last summer and these are the exact same type things I felt too. Watching those you love whither away right before your eyes...seeing a person that gives you strength from their love become so feable and helpless is a hard thing to do. I applaud you for realeasing these thoughts in a post. You did it very well and your write had that subtle smoothness to it that was captivating.
Everyone has to go sometime, I just wish they didnt have to go in such a heartbreaking manner as cancer, ya know?
Anyway, thanks for sharing.
Hold on to those good moments of him when you need a smile.
| Posted on 2006-03-17 00:00:00 | by hyproglo | [ Reply to This ]
  Kass, I'm so sorry for your loss. I think you did a great job expressing yourself and getting all out in the open. You created a vivd picture of your grandfather with your words and I as a reader grew to see why you missed him so much. Cancer took my dad away 3 years ago. I can relate to some degree with you honey. I hope you keep writing these feelings and not care about what any of us say. For now you are just speaking from your heart. I'm proud of you, this was a very well written poem, and filled with so many emotions and memories. Great job Kass.

| Posted on 2006-03-17 00:00:00 | by Magnolia Steele | [ Reply to This ]

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