Description: This is a weird piece but its an issue that many people have. Its a dormant infection that knows when to strike
are you infected?
My Darkest Embrace -------------------------------------------
I envy her for everything she is
I hate her for what she has taken from me
I used to wonder how it would feel,
To know a person so deep that words would just get in between
I have been bitten by hate,
A sweet parasite that infects my brain
I have allowed it to spread
To take everything I am and twist my words
I am blindly driven by what I feel
My eyes have turned green
As the days progress
In the beginning I fought
Courage and righteousness was my cause
But soon I began to give in
Allow it to take over my body in many ways
I wanted to hurt
I was tired of biting my own tongue
It was time for me to bite hers
She seeks me like water to earth
And like a wounded bird I embrace her pain
The words covered in blood
What a sweet dessert!
But I’m ready for the bittersweet aftertaste
The leaves will turn like night and day
And soon this parasite will infect someone else
But for now I shall enjoy its sweet embrace.
Hum, i read this with new eyes. I guess you need to embrace the emotion before you can embrace the words written here. At least with my intrepretation of this piece I can totally relate to it now, how the pain stings! I'm glad its there, at least one of us is human and still remembers what emotions feel like.
Oh how our inner demons stalk us and breaks you apart from yourself. In one side the dark emotionless personality ready to strike at whoever tires to get close. And in the other the cheerful personality wanting to feel the warmth of love and emotion. I see the second is imprisoned by the first. and how the second one waits for that glimmer of light that brings freedom. Just be sure to never lose hope, because hope is the only thing keeping us alive!
You are right this piece is weird. Its weird because it is unique. You have never written anything like this. When I read this I could not believe that it was you. It seemed like a totally different person was writing this. You infected? I couldn't believe it but I think in the end I realized that in one way or another we are all infected. Well I promised that I was going to break it down and here I am to accomplish that. Its funny how the more I am analyzing the poem the more I can relate to it. So far so good.
I envy her for everything she is I hate her for what she has taken from me I used to wonder how it would feel, To know a person so deep that words would just get in between
To tell you the truth when I first read this I thought that you were actually talking about someone. I wondered who could have produced such a feeling, such a raw emotion in you. The feeling is almost savage. My favorite sentence in this stanza is "To know a person so deep that words would just get in between". I have wondered this many times before but I am afraid to let a person get that close. Its just that I am afraid that if you let a person that close that they will be able to read your thoughts then your thoughts won't be your own. I guess if there are a few things that are truly mine they are my thoughts and I want to keep them to myself.
I have been bitten by hate, A sweet parasite that infects my brain I have allowed it to spread To take everything I am and twist my words
You captured the emotion that this parasite has produced. A feeling hard to fight. It controls you. You are its slave and have no opinion or command over it. I guess this is sometimes how I feel with certain people. Its just that there are times when I feel such a hatred, I don't know where it comes from and then my mouth it let loose and I can't stop what comes out of my mouth. It is truly at these moments that I feel like a slave.
I am blindly driven by what I feel My eyes have turned green As the days progress
To be blindly driven by what we feel. It is as if everyday the more I try to gain control of my emotions the more they run free. I have no reign. This freedom is both scary and exhilirating. Sometimes I feel so free but there are many times when this freedom scares me because I know that there will come a day when I will want to control my emotions but unfortunately they will be too savage for me to control.
In the beginning I fought Courage and righteousness was my cause But soon I began to give in Allow it to take over my body in many ways
Surrender, is it blissful? Who knows? Sometimes it easier to just give up but does that make it right. How strong must this envy, this emotion be that you feel that you must surrender. When I feel envy I try to be reasonable but there are many times when I can't. There are times when this hatred, envy just controls me and sometimes I like its dominion. Is that bad? Sometimes I do win the battle with the green monster. Other times I am consumed.
I wanted to hurt I was tired of biting my own tongue It was time for me to bite hers
Confused a bit. I agree with Blue Monk. It was kind of at the end that you lost me. I am sorry but for some reason I can't get the idea that you are speaking of someon. Could it be that ideal you that you envy? Your reflection when you look in the mirror?
She seeks me like water to earth And like a wounded bird I embrace her pain
Great stanza. Very descriptive to the feelings.
The words covered in blood What a sweet dessert! But I’m ready for the bittersweet aftertaste
It was still confusing here. I am sorry I am trying my best to understand it but I can't when I come to this stanza.
The leaves will turn like night and day And soon this parasite will infect someone else But for now I shall enjoy its sweet embrace
Great poem. Although at the end I was late I will admit that it was one of your best. I think that this one really let me see the dark side of Andrea. Well good luck with everything. Wish you good luck!
I, like Snowball_24, am confused so in order to gather more perspective I will break down the poem, analyze every stanza and see if I can understand it. Usually your poems, though full of meaning, are easy to understand. Oh, well I don't mind a challenge. Unfortunately I don't have that much time now but I wanted to post this to promise you I will read your poems and post a comment.
No, I can say I am NOT infected :))) To envy someone, I think, is really a feeling I long haven't felt (maybe as a kid when I saw someone's toy was better than mine :-) )
I agree with monk over here :-) that the last stanza really takes a harsh turn and loses all the readers - I don't know what to say of it, except that it feels good just like the rest of your poem, even if I don't fully understand its (the last stanza's) logics - but maybe it's supposed to be that way in poetry ;-)
Anyway, a solid write - not an especially great literal value, but you get to the point quick (with no running about) and effectively - best way to catch emotions on paper ;-) You probably hear this a lot, but I'll say it anyway: Keep writing :))
Very deep and compelling, it seems to grab at the reader with it's darkness and use of various "power words", all seemingly very negative emotionally. Creative - yes.
To think that any degree of hate and/or envy (green eyes) would be desired or beneficial seems strange but sometimes it may help to get it out of our systems, the sooner the better. I like the discription of hate as a parasite infecting on the brain because as soon as that is realized, you know the only way to get rid of it is found within yourself.
The last three stanzas seem to make a giant leap somewhere and some guidance could be helpful through this. I don't see a positive ending to the story, but I'm probably looking down the wrong road for that.
Ok this poem confused me, I think I need more background to make any sence out of it. What are you trying to describe? Your words were just to confusing, I made sence of some of the poem, but not all of it.
Submission Name: My Darkest Embrace
