I feel so lost in here
trapped behind the blurry line spawned
each thought that I had once seen clear
paints me deeper into a heart once withdrawn
(On both sides their was a completely different
world created of heart felt perception
dividing the whole truth of your universe
drawn in weakness inflicted blood shed
since your immaculate conception)
As the blade has been forgiven
it hurts less to see my reflection in it’s shine
and though our scars may not be forgotten;
with the growth earned with faith they will(ed) be beautified
(Yet we are allowed to take this line as a stain on sensibility
to choose our own miss or just direction
mis-direction-a self destructive truth of the universe:
spawned from weak constrictive love bred
is the only true great depression)
in the heart of my cynical laughter
I can hear the pleas of my father as he cries
I turned DISASsociaTion into hER disaster
it’s so easy to focus on the pain of our sacrifice
(In this choice beats the heart of our free willed blood
yet we cut so careless carving out the devils name
yet sacrificial wound puddles in our bodies
giving us another chance in life
though weakness speaks in vein)
So is the answer further down the road
down the winding path’s of curiosities spine
no longer will my pains memorandum make me loathe
for I will follow this path untill I’ve come to find
the truth
in ignorance
for our hearts know
of nothing but intention
so with your love
I will eternally seek
to shine this slowly growing impatient light
into the depths of my soul and darkness of my hunger;
blanketed by the convenience of misunderstanding for to long
This is certainly a beautiful piece. Highly inspirational and one that clearly seems to come from the depths of your being. From describing the state of mind and body you were in (are still partially in) into slowly breaking your denial by admitting (if only to yourself) that this is a weakness and then onto regaining the truthful hope that there is a better life of light further down the road and finally by you following a path you had never considered before in order to fine the truth.
Honestly beautiful. I love the layout and use of brackets and capitolisation. My only critique would be in stanza four where you've misplaced some posessive apostrophes. "the winding paths of curiosity's spine" and "will my pain's memorandum" and later on "until" is with a single 'l'. And... that's all. I loved this piece.
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