The House of Dust1917She turned her head on the pillow, and cried once more.
And drawing a shaken breath, and closing her eyes,
To shut out, if she could, this dingy room,
The wigs and costumes scattered around the floor,-
Yellows and greens in the dark,-she walked again
Those nightmare streets which she had walked so often . . .
Here, at a certain corner, under an arc-lamp,
Blown by a bitter wind, she stopped and looked
In through the brilliant windows of a drug-store,
And wondered if she dared to ask for poison:
But it was late, few customers were there,
The eyes of all the clerks would freeze upon her,
And she would wilt, and cry . . .Here, by the river,
She listened to the water slapping the wall,
And felt queer fascination in its blackness:
But it was cold, the little waves looked cruel,
The stars were keen, and a windy dash of spray
Struck her cheek, and withered her veins . . . And so
She dragged herself once more to home, and bed.Paul hadn't guessed it yet-though twice, already,
She'd fainted-once, the first time, on the stage.
So she must tell him soon-or else-get out . . .
How could she say it?That was the hideous thing.
She'd rather die than say it! . . . and all the trouble,
Months when she couldn't earn a cent, and then,
If he refused to marry her . . . well, what?
She saw him laughing, making a foolish joke,
His grey eyes turning quickly; and the words
Fled from her tongue . . .She saw him sitting silent,
Brooding over his morning coffee, maybe,
And tried again . . . she bit her lips, and trembled,
And looked away, and said . . . 'Say Paul, boy,-listen-
There's something I must tell you . . . 'There she stopped,
Wondering what he'd say . . .What would he say?
'Spring it, kid!Don't look so serious!'
'But what I've got to say-IS-serious!'
Then she could see how, suddenly, he would sober,
His eyes would darken, he'd look so terrifying-
He always did-and what could she do but cry?
Perhaps, then, he would guess-perhaps he wouldn't.
And if he didn't, but asked her 'What's the matter?'-
She knew she'd never tell-just say she was sick . . .
And after that, when would she dare again?
And what would he do-even suppose she told him?If it were Felix!If it were only Felix!-
She wouldn't mind so much.But as it was,
Bitterness choked her, she had half a mind
To pay out Felix for never having liked her,
By making people think that it was he . . .
She'd write a letter to someone, before she died,-
Just saying 'Felix did it-and wouldn't marry.'
And then she'd die . . .But that was hard on Paul . . .
Paul would never forgive her-he'd never forgive her!
Sometimes she almost thought Paul really loved her . . .
She saw him look reproachfully at her coffin.And then she closed her eyes and walked again
Those nightmare streets that she had walked so often:
Under an arc-lamp swinging in the wind
She stood, and stared in through a drug-store window,
Watching a clerk wrap up a little pill-box.
But it was late.No customers were there,-
Pitiless eyes would freeze her secret in her!
And then-what poison would she dare to ask for?
And if they asked her why, what would she say?
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